Au revoir

I hate this day. I hate hate this day more than any. It started as a happy day and ended up in tragedy. The girl I love has just leave me. Now I look like a fool. And you know what I do best in this scenario? Cry. Cry and cry until every pain is gone. Can't think of something else to say, I'm in tears now. Sana, mawala na 'tong pakiramdam na 'to (I wish this feeling would end) :(

Something aside from LOSING

I need to be something, to be someone. Something so big that cannot be ignored, someone that's not unknown. I'm sick and tired of people who ignores you even if you just want to make friends with them. Many would say, "Ronald, it's just a simple matter, get on with it" Yeah it's simple allright, but this, for me, determines you in the social circle. Why in the world would they ignore me? Because I have an eccentric taste in things? Because I'm not good-looking? Because I don't have style? Because I don't have a job? Because I don't have any fucking degree? I have nothing to boast of! And that set of evidently unlaughable things, my remaining friends, is the one that apparently and currently boosts my self-esteem to none. Because of that, I always thought that I am such a loser, a huge loser. In fact, if you've got a moment, it's a twelve-storey loser with a magnificent entrance hall, carpeting throughout, 24-hour porterage and an enormous sign on the roof saying 'This Is a Huge Loser.' But this is not the end of me. I'm going to study again (hopefully) taking a decent course (well, a little) in a decent school (finally), earn a Bachelor's degree or a Master's if I got lucky, and then shave it off on people's faces! Haha! That will be my time of revenge! And it's coming soon and fast, like a bus going to Monumento that goes as fast as an aircraft. So beware, Mr. and Mrs. Snob-asses, for when I became something like an expert or a technical celebrity, you'll see.. haha!

Lycia

I love music. Everyday I search for new kinds of music. My fondness of Gothic Rock, Gothic Metal and Symphonic Metal bands lead me to discover yet another genre associated in the Gothic scene which is: DARKWAVE. My first ever darkwave song to hear is Black Tape for a Blue Girl's "I Have No More Answers". Darkwave is sometimes melancholic, dreamy but in my case, hauntingly beautiful. Since then, I kept on searching for other Darkwave bands then I found Lycia, a band from Arizona. Tara Vanflower's elegant dreamy voice and Mike VanPortFleet's instrumentation are the driving forces behind the band. I'm listening to them for nearly a couple of years now, I heard almost all their music. Then I found Tara's page on Facebook. I e-mailed her telling about how good Lycia is and how I, and many Lycia's fans out there, hope that they continue to create these music that we learn to love. I didn't expect that I'd get a reply from her. Like any other fans, one would surely feel what I felt: Happy. Tara was very friendly. Well, that single reply made my day complete. I hope every band will be like that. Kudos for Lycia!

TESTING.. TESTING..

Like any other websites/blogs, everyone has their iconic "first message/post". Twitter has "just setting up my twttr" so I have one too! and it is "Hello, testing, hello.. just setting up my bllgr" Hahaha!